The Darkness

The silence is deafening and the darkness blinding. It is cold and damp and it chills my very soul. Imprisoned by the walls.....walls that I put up none the less, but walls that kept me alone. Alone in my sadness, and pain and fear. It ate at me...eating away at the very core of who I am and who I am called to be. Frozen by fear, afraid to admit, accept or reveal....and so I sat, stuck in the mire around me. Unable to cope, unable to hope, unable to move on. It was then that I heard Your voice, calling me from beyond that place, calling me to the destiny You had already laid out for me. But the darkness...the sadness consumed me.....even still You called. Ever so patiently, ever so gently You called. The darkness still around, the pain so very deep but now a strength surged through my soul and a recognition that I was not alone but loved by the Almighty God. You knit me together in my mothers womb and numbered the hairs on my head! You had come to rescue me and a new hope and determination welled up in my soul as You filled me with understanding, that I am not alone! I began to wiggle my feet, first one and then the other, shaking free the mire that had once held me prisoner. The darkness still very dark and deep but Your voice guided me. One step and then another, I followed You...trusting in Your voice to lead me. Soon my steps became faster, my trust in Your voice greater unil I found myself running. Running in complete trust in Your voice to protect me and show me the way. It was then, in the total trust in the voice that created me, the darkness was consumed....the sadness disappeared and the pain completely healed. It was then, I found myself restored, renewed, and running passionately the race You had created me to run!